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Post by Deleted on Jan 20, 2017 14:11:39 GMT
Hi, I don't normally get all sappy and emotional. But Mass Effect is a series that brought many players, countries, actors, artists and cosplayers together. It's know to bring out emotions, to touch the heart of those that are willing to explore this massive universe. We recently got a release date confirmed for our soon-to-be beloved Mass Effect sequel. March 21st 2017. This date tugs at my heart harder than anything I've experienced in Mass Effect's Trilogy. Because it is so close to the birth... and death of a friend, I never took the time to really get to know. I grew up, in a sheltered life. Never had any friends. I was quiet, shy, anti-social. An introvert, of sorts. Never tried to talk to almost anyone. Was I afraid? Ashamed? I don't know. I loved the things this friend used to make on the internet. She was, like us, a big fan of Mass Effect. She loved making fan art. And she loved the Asari. Aria seemed to be one of her favorites.. She- passed away in April. A day before her birthday, due to cancer. I thought she was going to make it, you know? Despite the fact I didn't talk much to her, I always used to always check out the next sketch or digital art she put out. Her death hit me harder than anything you can imagine. At times things looked like they were going to start looking up. Then it had gotten so bad- She eventually got married to the one she loved the most, in the hospital. With the new Mass Effect coming out a month before her birthday, I find myself thinking more and more about her. She'll never get to play this. Never get to explore Andromeda. Yet, among all this pain in her life, she managed to keep a smile. And her art helped me through one of the hardest times in my life. She made me smile, laugh, and gave me the strength to push on. Her name was Romy Kasper. If you're reading this, I want you to know, I am going to Andromeda for you. And I am dedicating this poorly drawn, sketch I made of Aria, to you. To Romy, The Best Friend, I'll Never Know...  |
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Post by frosted on Jan 20, 2017 15:06:45 GMT
That was beautiful. She was fortunate to have a friend and admirer like you.
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Post by OneWomanArmy on Jan 20, 2017 17:40:37 GMT
Many forget how short life is, sad that it takes such unfortunate events to remind us. This is why I always try to cherish life and live it to the fullest (within my limits), cause you never know what can happen when you least expect it, too many people take it for granted. My condolences for your friend, I'm sure she's at a better place right now.
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Post by Deleted on Jan 21, 2017 19:28:01 GMT
That was beautiful. She was fortunate to have a friend and admirer like you. Many forget how short life is, sad that it takes such unfortunate events to remind us. This is why I always try to cherish life and live it to the fullest (within my limits), cause you never know what can happen when you least expect it, too many people take it for granted. My condolences for your friend, I'm sure she's at a better place right now. Thank you all for the kind words/gestures. I don't mean to get all emotional, but I felt like this was something I needed to do. Again, I really appreciate how nice the community is here. You guys are like family to me!  |
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Post by Obliviousmiss on Jan 21, 2017 19:37:28 GMT
My husband's cousin was an avid gamer and computer programmer. He tested EA games for a living. Thanksgiving were always us excitedly discussing new games. Thanksgiving 2015, he told us he played 20 minutes of MEA (fact checked, several other people tested the same early build, told us the Nomad would fall seamlessly out of the tempest, no loading screens. ) he was so excited about it!
He started to suffer daily from cluster headaches, but was still his outgoing and happy self. August 2016 he went to sleep not feeling good and never woke up. He suffered from a brain aneurysm at 29.
It was really hard on my husband. They were good friends, and this was so unexpected. A part of me feels guilty that I get to enjoy this anticipated game he was so looKing forward to.
I may not completely understand what you're feeling, but know you're not alone when you'll be thinking of a loved one when this game releases.
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Post by Deleted on Jan 21, 2017 19:53:23 GMT
My husband's cousin was an avid gamer and computer programmer. He tested EA games for a living. Thanksgiving were always us excitedly discussing new games. Thanksgiving 2015, he told us he played 20 minutes of MEA (fact checked, several other people tested the same early build, told us the Nomad would fall seamlessly out of the tempest, no loading screens. ) he was so excited about it! He started to suffer daily from cluster headaches, but was still his outgoing and happy self. August 2016 he went to sleep not feeling good and never woke up. He suffered from a brain aneurysm at 29. It was really hard on my husband. They were good friends, and this was so unexpected. A part of me feels guilty that I get to enjoy this anticipated game he was so looKing forward to. I may not completely understand what you're feeling, but know you're not alone when you'll be thinking of a loved one when this game releases. I'm sorry. It's tough. No one should die that young. It's the events like this, that truly make you appreciate what you have. It will be tough playing this game, knowing loved ones we lost will never get to. But I know that they would want you to continue to enjoy this series. I know that if anything ever happens to me, I would want you to continue to play this series. It's one of the things I treasure most. I'd want people to continue to explore. To dream! To never stop doing the things you love. In a way, maybe that's why I love Mass Effect so much. You meet new people. Make new friends. Then some get taken away from you. But you still have to continue on. We may always carry the guilt of feeling this way. But never forget the good times we had with those people. |
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Post by Deleted on Jan 21, 2017 19:57:12 GMT
My sympathies to you Vae and Obliv, I may not be able to relate to a loss of a friend to ME:A, but I few years back I lost a good friend who's missing other games/movies/tv shows and books I know he would've loved. Undiagnosed diabetes killed him and then his father (who had been diagnosed) died about two years later. It is heartbreaking to see the things lost loved ones would've enjoyed had they been around to see it.
That was a very wonderful tribute Vae, I'm sure Romy would've loved it.
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Post by Deleted on Jan 23, 2017 11:48:31 GMT
My sympathies to you Vae and Obliv, I may not be able to relate to a loss of a friend to ME:A, but I few years back I lost a good friend who's missing other games/movies/tv shows and books I know he would've loved. Undiagnosed diabetes killed him and then his father (who had been diagnosed) died about two years later. It is heartbreaking to see the things lost loved ones would've enjoyed had they been around to see it. That was a very wonderful tribute Vae, I'm sure Romy would've loved it. Thank you Viv. I've felt a lot better after posting this thread. It's heartening to know that others are here to comfort one another. You have my sympathy. Life can be tough. I'm just glad I don't have to face it alone. Also, nice profile picture! |
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Post by Deleted on Jan 24, 2017 5:29:50 GMT
I will probably regret doing this later but I am drinking so what the fuck.
I have lived my life like you, not a lot of friends, introverted, shy. What the fuck you ever want to call it. Probably because I grew up on a farm. Living on a farm there is no one but your family so when you get into populated places I felt weird around strangers. I had 3 brothers one was older and never around, he is 8 years older than I, so yeah not a lot in common. It was mostly just the 3 of us doing everything together. When I was 13 we found out that my youngest, age 11, brother had a brain tumor. Being 13 you are in a strange place of not being a kid and not being adult, so it was weird dealing with that at that age. I remember being on spring vacation when we heard the news that he died and my other brother, 2 years older then me hugged me crying. But I didnt cry, and I have always felt bad for not crying. IDK why I didnt. Maybe because I couldnt really grasp the situation. Or maybe I was already dead inside from seeing my youngest brother in the shape he was in before he died.
As I sit here typing the I wonder why I am.
I think its because your story of your friend reminded me of my brother. And even with fucked up shit going on in the world we are still alive. We can pretty much do whatever we want in life. And yet I feel so depressed all the time.
I think that is the point is it not? That the point of life is not wealth or sex or material things. Its spending time with the ones we love for as long as we can because being alone sucks. We need each other as human beings. Life is just better when you have people to spend it with.
But what the fuck do I know I am a worthless drunk pos
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Post by Deleted on Jan 24, 2017 11:21:08 GMT
I will probably regret doing this later but I am drinking so what the fuck. I have lived my life like you, not a lot of friends, introverted, shy. What the fuck you ever want to call it. Probably because I grew up on a farm. Living on a farm there is no one but your family so when you get into populated places I felt weird around strangers. I had 3 brothers one was older and never around, he is 8 years older than I, so yeah not a lot in common. It was mostly just the 3 of us doing everything together. When I was 13 we found out that my youngest, age 11, brother had a brain tumor. Being 13 you are in a strange place of not being a kid and not being adult, so it was weird dealing with that at that age. I remember being on spring vacation when we heard the news that he died and my other brother, 2 years older then me hugged me crying. But I didnt cry, and I have always felt bad for not crying. IDK why I didnt. Maybe because I couldnt really grasp the situation. Or maybe I was already dead inside from seeing my youngest brother in the shape he was in before he died. As I sit here typing the I wonder why I am. I think its because your story of your friend reminded me of my brother. And even with fucked up shit going on in the world we are still alive. We can pretty much do whatever we want in life. And yet I feel so depressed all the time. I think that is the point is it not? That the point of life is not wealth or sex or material things. Its spending time with the ones we love for as long as we can because being alone sucks. We need each other as human beings. Life is just better when you have people to spend it with. But what the fuck do I know I am a worthless drunk pos Don't regret it, man. Sometimes sharing your pain helps. I have quite a few siblings, I couldn't imagine what I'd do if anything happened to any of them. Like you, I dealt with things no kid should've been dealing with. I think it made me callous to a lot of things, over the years. Yet, I always loved my Grandfather ( one of my only good relatives. The best, in fact) he lived out of state. When I was really young, he had a stroke. Which left him 92% paralyzed, and bed-ridden. It was like that for ten or so years. Yet he loved life! Father's Day was coming up, and I drew him a picture of his favorite sport's team. He passed away before I could give it to him.. We got the news over the telephone. My Father ( his son) burst into tears. My sister, Mother and youngest brother cried. I was just quiet. The whole day. I always wondered why I didn't shed any tears. I think the day he died, part of me died with him. That was a long time ago. So you're not alone in feeling that way. I know I am no therapist, but please, don't be so hard on yourself! I'm sure you're a great guy. And someone out there ( family or friends) loves and needs you. Our friends my be gone, but we can still live on, for them! |
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Post by KingTony on Jan 24, 2017 17:36:10 GMT
It sounds to me like you've lived through what I fear every day of my life. I was raised like you, never had many people in my life, and it's made me hold on to the ones I do have a little too tightly sometimes. My heart goes out to you, man.
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Post by Deleted on Jan 25, 2017 13:16:46 GMT
It sounds to me like you've lived through what I fear every day of my life. I was raised like you, never had many people in my life, and it's made me hold on to the ones I do have a little too tightly sometimes. My heart goes out to you, man. Thanks Mr. Montana! That means a lot to me.  You hold onto them, and never let 'em go! P.S. I think this will be my last post on this thread. I appreciate everyone comforting me. And I enjoy trying to help relate to others- But this thread is making me feel blue, again. I love you all, but I want to keep the amazing mood I am in. So, thanks for everything and I'll see you on other (happier) parts of this forum! |
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