The Blanketfort (crying and throwing up) - The Official Solas Thread [Spoilers]

That’s not to say everything is princess and ponies for her. The pangs of decisions and leadership take a toll on her, and I think that the Solamance really helps bring that out. She is thrust into this position, tries to act as expected of her while still trying following her own morals, and seemingly saves the world while doing it, but there is no reward in the end. Her friends from the clan she left with are killed in explosion. Then I managed to get her whole clan killed, so the only people close to her at all in the end were her confidants in the Inquisition.

Playing the Avvar DLC without Solas was pretty harrowing for my Lavellan. Here she saw herself in Ameridan. Both elves, she think this is how she will be remembered, nothing like how she actually was. Top that off with the romance parallels between them, where if you image Lavellan as Telana, that waiting for Solas will bear no fruits and I found my Levallan getting increasing more hostile. Started flipping people the bird and giving no cares. Honestly, all she could think about was the bald head and she wanted it back.

The best part of this was playing Trespassers as an angry ball of love. By this point, most of her friends had left, being she was particularly close with Sara (bestie), Dorian (bff), and Cassandra (older sister she never had, who became divine). She feels rather lost and alone as all her friends depart to do their own thing (couldn't really handle Joe or Lil, too fancy for her foliage frolicking forays); left with a giant and powerful organization that viewed her more of a demigod than an mortal elf. But once I realized the agent was Solas, I mean it was pretty obvious before you even got to the lyrium mine, all she cared about was Solas, that heart dialogue option “I have to save Solas” was hilarious in one patch (don't remember which) because once said: everyone, not just your party members (popup and all), disproves except Cole, at least as a spirit who greatly approves. Unfortunately, just ran through Trespassers again and it doesn’t do that anymore; it just displays party members.

After delving into all the lore and finding that Elves = Spirits, I realized there was one codex entry that summed up my character, the one about a mage summoning a spirit of love. It was pure at first, but his own desires twisted the spirit's nature. Here my Lavellan is the spirit of love, as I played it as a little goody two-shoes at the start, so everyone ending up adoring her as a little ball of fluff (max relations with everyone!). Solas is the summoner, at first their relationship is pure just as with all the other companions, but their desires to be with one another starts to change not just their relationship, but Lavellan herself (first love an’ all). Solas backs out after he starts to see this, being all dutiful and stuff, but not just his duty as ancient elven god but Lavellan’s as well: her being Inquisitor. Unfortunately, being away only makes the desire stronger and she continues to twist until Trespasser comes. She’s a raging bitch that's getting real angry that everyone else gets their happy ending. I loved telling Solas he lied; the angry response was so satisfying; that look where he feels guilty and stammers out that awful excuse for his actions. But then...face to face and you’re thinking: kiss me ! (can I say that word here?) No, come back; I didn’t mean it! Take me with you; screw the Inquisition. At this point, she has become full desire demon and all she wants is Solas. Then you go and tell everyone to piss off at the council and go chase after Solas, because waiting won't bring anything. I think of it as a beautiful story of star-crossed lovers, especially because Cole is the only one who approves of the romance. Can’t wait to see the conclusion, hope it's just as tragic as the rest of their story. Would love me some more of these feels.