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Post by Energizer Bunny 211 on Aug 23, 2024 12:45:14 GMT
My bad luck lately is totally absurd. I lost my wallet, there was no money in it but my drivers license, ID and my credit card. Yesterday just before I went to bed I put it in my backpack for tomorrow, closed the zipper and went to bed as usual. This morning when I left I simply got the pack to put my phone in it, closed it again and never opened it again until I arrived where I needed to be. And there it was simply gone. I didnt drop it on the floor or anything, just gone, everything else was still in the bag, even the loose pennies. There simply wasnt a single situation where I opened the pack and it could have fallen out and I sure as hell put it in the pack because the wallet is not in my apartment either. I absolutely turned over my entire apartment thrice, even looked in the trash, looked everwhere I walked, contacted the local police-. Nothing, just vanished. Some days I think I'm cursed. With everything thats going on in my life right now this is exactly what I needed. Sorry to hear that, Beetle. Losing a wallet is one of the most stressful personal events/accidents that can happen because as you pointed out you may not have money but you have everything else. Licenses, Health Cards, other IDs, Credit Cards, Bank Cards, Insurance Cards.....It's a heart-stopping mess. I've been there before, once. Thankfully my wallet turned up in a very silly place. But for you to have been very deliberate with your actions (I can relate too) to take care and be sure of something (your wallet in your backpack) only to have it vanish....Is another level, because rationally it should not have happened. I've been there too, not with wallets but with other things. Once again, I'm sorry my friend. I do hope things get better for you very soon. Losing things, losing anything is my ultimate..... "pet peeve" doesn't even come close. Losing things is the bane of my existence.
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Post by Giant Ambush Beetle on Aug 23, 2024 16:11:13 GMT
Once again, I'm sorry my friend. I do hope things get better for you very soon. Thank you, can't wait to run out of bad luck which I absolutely have to very soon. Its the manner in which I lost my wallet which drives me crazy, it should not have been possible, I was not careless and I did not lose anything else in my backpack. I still think its in my apartment somewhere but I looked for it EVERYWHERE. Could've only flushed it down the toilet. Another thing thats possible, and it would be very creepy, is that I sleepwalked and lost it somehow. Thanks to all the stress I can't sleep so I take ambien (zoldem)and that stuff is known to make some people sleepwalk so hard they go out and buy stuff or drive around aimlessly. Maybe I do it too, there is no way to be sure.
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Post by Energizer Bunny 211 on Aug 23, 2024 16:24:08 GMT
Once again, I'm sorry my friend. I do hope things get better for you very soon. Thank you, can't wait to run out of bad luck which I absolutely have to very soon. Its the manner in which I lost my wallet which drives me crazy, it should not have been possible, I was not careless and I did not lose anything else in my backpack. I still think its in my apartment somewhere but I looked for it EVERYWHERE. Could've only flushed it down the toilet. In cases such as these I blame it on the gnomes. Little bastards are always stealing everything. Funny story (has nothing to do with gnomes)....I've worn glasses since I was 2 years old (except during highschool I switched to contacts) but for as long as I can remember I've worn glasses. And when I was about 3 or 4 years old one year my family was at my grandparents' place for CHristmas and we were watching some old 35 mm slides. Well that evening we noticed my glasses were missing and my entire family tore my grandparents' house apart top to bottom, front to back, ceiling to floor and wall to wall looking for them. We never found them. Until about 2 years later we were once again at their place for Christmas and we had unpacked the projector......And there they were lodged in one of the slide trays packed away in the box. To this very day no one can explain how they got there or why. And to this day, everyone (teasingly) blames my eldest cousin of my youngest aunt because he was always taking other kids' things and hiding them. But that's just a suspicion, no one can say with any degree of certainty what happened. But we did find them. Only by that time my mom had bought me a new pair. RE: Flushing your wallet down the toilet (unlikely) but you would notice if you had any toilet plumbing problems (ie toilet backing up). If you haven't then I would rule that one out.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 23, 2024 22:02:36 GMT
Yep, losing a wallet sucks. I lost mine in my early 20's. Spent a day with a friend getting my cards back. I wound up getting the run-around too. I couldn't get any other cards without my birth certificate. Which I keep in my wallet, you're not supposed to but tell me that after you've lost everything in a house-fire, flooding, or infestation. But the people at the government agency wouldn't give me a birth certificate without something else, I went there first, then had to go back because every other place needed that specific one. They asked me some questions and I couldn't answer some of them because I was raised by a single mother. Anything on my father's side is an unknown. But I also wouldn't leave because at that point every other place needed that specific card. Eventually an older clerk came, took pity on my young ass, and told the younger clerk giving me a hard time to just do it. Most of the time I hate dealing with the government. Most of the time, with the exception of the licensing place in downtown Victoria in the last several years. They are delightful and squeezed me in in 20 minutes instead of making me make an appointment for another day. Also quite cheerful and efficient. It's like stepping into another dimension. Their manager must be a fuckin' rock star.
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Post by dazk on Aug 23, 2024 23:15:23 GMT
My bad luck lately is totally absurd. I lost my wallet, there was no money in it but my drivers license, ID and my credit card. Yesterday just before I went to bed I put it in my backpack for tomorrow, closed the zipper and went to bed as usual. This morning when I left I simply got the pack to put my phone in it, closed it again and never opened it again until I arrived where I needed to be. And there it was simply gone. I didnt drop it on the floor or anything, just gone, everything else was still in the bag, even the loose pennies. There simply wasnt a single situation where I opened the pack and it could have fallen out and I sure as hell put it in the pack because the wallet is not in my apartment either. I absolutely turned over my entire apartment thrice, even looked in the trash, looked everwhere I walked, contacted the local police-. Nothing, just vanished. Some days I think I'm cursed. With everything thats going on in my life right now this is exactly what I needed. Sorry to here about the crap that's going on in your life ATM, hope things turn for the better soon.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 25, 2024 9:25:35 GMT
Why thank you i thought so to. Normally, I'm not a stickler about these things, but not the best form to take credit from someone else's soup. Particularly, when it's Chelsey's from Utah, of all places. Obviously you are now ... but still you have some work to do then ... i wish you good luck.
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Post by Energizer Bunny 211 on Aug 25, 2024 18:27:31 GMT
Another frustrating and somewhat embarrassing day on the golf course. Off the Tees (playing the Middle/White Tees) I couldn't hit my Woods to save my life! Irons were good when I didn't fall back into old habits, and my short game continues to be my real strength and why I score as I low as I do. Plus, today for the first time in a while....today I didn't lose a single ball. Sure I would put them into the feskew ("F--k You") Grass but I'd always find them then take the penalty stroke and toss it out. But I never actually LOST any balls. There have been rounds where I loose as many as 6 or even 12 balls....But not today. So I was really happy about that.
And my Short Game continues to save me strokes when I really need it. But right now I feel like my game is lop-sided and inconsistent; if I could just get my Woods to be straight even 70% of the time I'd be happy and I wouldn't have to rely on my short game as much as I do.
I shot an 88 today, but on the course I played I really feel like I should have been in the 77-80 neighbourhood as it is not a difficult course. I've played better on courses that are far more difficult. My next game is on Tuesday on one such course...so we will see what happens.
No matter how I play it's always good to be out and I always want to come back for more, always looking to do better in some area. That's what makes golf such a passionate, interesting game.
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Post by B. Hieronymus Da on Aug 25, 2024 22:37:31 GMT
It's depressing to visit this forum currently, as I'm still buried in duties that sadly awaits Beetle too, eventually. I feel like I should say something uplifting. But the only thing in my mind is Churchill's speech about blood, toil, tears and sweat. But also Churchill's "When you find yourself going through Hell, keep going." Meaning, of course, don't stop there, pass through it. It's mentally exhausting because it's complicated and unknown, it's emotionally exhausting, and it's even physically exhausting, because you have to dig through it all personally, because things matters.
What can I say? Don't let it "drown" you into despair. Take one step at a time. Figure what you can/need do now, do that. Repeat figure what you can do, do that, and so on. Just keep plodding. Best wishes.
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Post by dazk on Aug 26, 2024 3:05:44 GMT
So a productive day at home basically alone, son is sleeping off staying up all night playing D&D.
Some chores then braising some beef and chucking it in the slow cooker (with other ingredients) for 7 hours to make shredded Beef Tacos or Quesadillas tonight.
Now for some DAO hopefully for the next 4 hours.
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Post by rewindbutton on Aug 26, 2024 6:44:54 GMT
depressing to visit this forum currently It's most old men now, that is to be expected. I feel like I should say something uplifting. For all the people going through stuff in life: Take one day at the time. It's quite enough; the day will come, when you can look forward again.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 26, 2024 7:07:03 GMT
depressing to visit this forum currently It's most old men now, that is to be expected. I feel like I should say something uplifting. For all the people going through stuff in life: Take one day at the time. It's quite enough; the day will come, when you can look forward again. My life sucks. No, ands, ifs, or buts.
But I can also tell every person here there is a certain amount of "FuckIt" that will get you through things you wouldn't expect to survive.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 26, 2024 9:10:30 GMT
It's most old men now, that is to be expected. For all the people going through stuff in life: Take one day at the time. It's quite enough; the day will come, when you can look forward again. My life sucks. No, ands, ifs, or buts.
But I can also tell every person here there is a certain amount of "FuckIt" that will get you through things you wouldn't expect to survive. My life sucks even more for the past 12 to 15 years every night I hope I do not wake up the next morning but as you can see I'm still here. I'm weak and a coward because I do not have the guts to end it myself as if I cling to something but I have no idea what that something is. My trust in people is gone I have to many knives in my back from people that did me wrong including my own family. I live alone and I am alone so no friends and obviously no family. And fuckit doesn't help at all at least not anymore.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 26, 2024 10:06:34 GMT
My life sucks. No, ands, ifs, or buts. But I can also tell every person here there is a certain amount of "FuckIt" that will get you through things you wouldn't expect to survive. I'm weak and a coward because I do not have the guts to end it myself as if I cling to something but I have no idea what that something is. My trust in people is gone I have to many knives in my back from people that did me wrong including my own family. I don't have much trust in, anything, myself. There is one thing that I did when I was at a low point. I went on reddit, on r/suicidewatch. I didn't post, I just read. Reading was overwhelming. But it helped. Every minute, every moment, people feel the same. It just all sucks.
It helped me to see and to offer advice where I could, like if I was explaining why they ought to continue on I'd have hard time explaining why I shouldn't.
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Post by Giant Ambush Beetle on Aug 26, 2024 10:10:09 GMT
My life sucks. No, ands, ifs, or buts.
But I can also tell every person here there is a certain amount of "FuckIt" that will get you through things you wouldn't expect to survive. My life sucks even more for the past 12 to 15 years every night I hope I do not wake up the next morning but as you can see I'm still here. I'm weak and a coward because I do not have the guts to end it myself as if I cling to something but I have no idea what that something is. Probably the worst of all evils known to man - Hope. My life lately feels like swimming through a sea of glass shards naked with no shore to be seen but I don't give up because I'm a fighter. I will never quit, death has to visit me in person and strangle me because I wont quit. That's the source I draw my strength from. If life hates me so much then I will hate it right back and won't give it the satisfaction of letting it defeat me. And maaaybe something good will come from it some day. Bottom line - if life sucks you got to respec yourself into bloodied monk or berserker build, the more HP you lose the harder you fight.
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Post by Energizer Bunny 211 on Aug 26, 2024 12:18:54 GMT
My day is actually off to a surprising start, because I woke up this morning to the notice that I could pre-load STAR WARS Oulaws! And the blue PLAY Button is highlighted so I wonder if that means I can play it, too....???? If not, that's okay- I don't actually expect to be able to at this point because it's only the 26th. But I will have to wait till At least Wednesday if I am unable to play it today. But that was something exciting to wake up to at least....knowing that a pre-load was available.
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Post by Energizer Bunny 211 on Aug 26, 2024 19:49:32 GMT
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Post by B. Hieronymus Da on Aug 26, 2024 20:23:10 GMT
I'm weak and a coward because I do not have the guts to end it myself as if I cling to something but I have no idea what that something is. My trust in people is gone I have to many knives in my back from people that did me wrong including my own family. I live alone and I am alone so no friends and obviously no family. And fuckit doesn't help at all at least not anymore. Well, you're obviously not a coward. It's the cowards who end themselves. Weird concept of "solution", really, as if the end is some kind of flight or train that you're in danger of missing. As for alone, well, you post here, don't you? And since I'm paraphrasing God there, I now have to warn you that I'm not an atheist. It doesn't mean I believe in each letter of some religion, I don't since I know it's made by humans for purposes. But I do believe in something, someone, we can call "God", and a greater scope to life. I do that because even as I was a fervent atheist in my late teens and twenties, even some of my thirties, I found myself one day lying on the floor in a fetal position, praying desperately with my outmost intensity. And someone suddenly answered, loud and clear as a day, inside my head. It's the one and only time God has spoken to me, and I don't really expect to hear from him again (though I can sometimes imagine I get a hint or sign). You're welcome to think it was a hallucination. To me it doesn't matter one way or another, since why couldn't God manifest himself in an hallucination? Regardless, to me it changed everything. Not just the jolt and shock of suddenly getting answers, but also the energy and power of the answers. Each of them shifted something internally in me, made me comfortable and stronger, despite none of them really being the answer you would initially want. I've heard the actor Jon Voigt tell of a similar episode in his life. To him too, the message he got also brought clarity. " It's not supposed to be easy." Here's my "conversation". I don't know if it can possibly mean anything to you, but I'm offering it anyway. I'm so alone Yet you prayI'm in the Abyss You liveAm I nothing to you? You're freeDon't you care? You care, don't youI'm so tired Nothing lastsBut I'm afraid You're made of stardust, you're always homeHelp me Everything you need, I've already given you. Final words, stay away from drink, drugs and sad music. Look to things that gives you joy. If you can find those and milk it, it goes a long way.
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Post by Energizer Bunny 211 on Aug 26, 2024 21:32:00 GMT
I'm weak and a coward because I do not have the guts to end it myself as if I cling to something but I have no idea what that something is. My trust in people is gone I have to many knives in my back from people that did me wrong including my own family. I live alone and I am alone so no friends and obviously no family. And fuckit doesn't help at all at least not anymore. Well, you're obviously not a coward. It's the cowards who end themselves. Weird concept of "solution", really, as if the end is some kind of flight or train that you're in danger of missing. As for alone, well, you post here, don't you? And since I'm paraphrasing God there, I now have to warn you that I'm not an atheist. It doesn't mean I believe in each letter of some religion, I don't since I know it's made by humans for purposes. But I do believe in something, someone, we can call "God", and a greater scope to life. I do that because even as I was a fervent atheist in my late teens and twenties, even some of my thirties, I found myself one day lying on the floor in a fetal position, praying desperately with my outmost intensity. And someone suddenly answered, loud and clear as a day, inside my head. It's the one and only time God has spoken to me, and I don't really expect to hear from him again (though I can sometimes imagine I get a hint or sign). You're welcome to think it was a hallucination. To me it doesn't matter one way or another, since why couldn't God manifest himself in an hallucination? Regardless, to me it changed everything. Not just the jolt and shock of suddenly getting answers, but also the energy and power of the answers. Each of them shifted something internally in me, made me comfortable and stronger, despite none of them really being the answer you would initially want. I've heard the actor Jon Voigt tell of a similar episode in his life. To him too, the message he got also brought clarity. " It's not supposed to be easy." Here's my "conversation". I don't know if it can possibly mean anything to you, but I'm offering it anyway. I'm so alone Yet you prayI'm in the Abyss You liveAm I nothing to you? You're freeDon't you care? You care, don't youI'm so tired Nothing lastsBut I'm afraid You're made of stardust, you're always homeHelp me Everything you need, I've already given you. Final words, stay away from drink, drugs and sad music. Look to things that gives you joy. If you can find those and milk it, it goes a long way. And I have no doubt that He heard every word, even those you could not utter verbally.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 27, 2024 6:54:38 GMT
It's depressing to visit this forum currently, as I'm still buried in duties that sadly awaits Beetle too, eventually. I feel like I should say something uplifting. But the only thing in my mind is Churchill's speech about blood, toil, tears and sweat. But also Churchill's "When you find yourself going through Hell, keep going." Meaning, of course, don't stop there, pass through it. It's mentally exhausting because it's complicated and unknown, it's emotionally exhausting, and it's even physically exhausting, because you have to dig through it all personally, because things matters. What can I say? Don't let it "drown" you into despair. Take one step at a time. Figure what you can/need do now, do that. Repeat figure what you can do, do that, and so on. Just keep plodding. Best wishes. True and it gets even more depressing when i continue reading.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 27, 2024 7:06:23 GMT
It's most old men now, that is to be expected. For all the people going through stuff in life: Take one day at the time. It's quite enough; the day will come, when you can look forward again. My life sucks. No, ands, ifs, or buts.
But I can also tell every person here there is a certain amount of "FuckIt" that will get you through things you wouldn't expect to survive. My life sucks. No, ands, ifs, or buts.
But I can also tell every person here there is a certain amount of "FuckIt" that will get you through things you wouldn't expect to survive. My life sucks even more for the past 12 to 15 years every night I hope I do not wake up the next morning but as you can see I'm still here. I'm weak and a coward because I do not have the guts to end it myself as if I cling to something but I have no idea what that something is. My trust in people is gone I have to many knives in my back from people that did me wrong including my own family. I live alone and I am alone so no friends and obviously no family. And fuckit doesn't help at all at least not anymore. My life sucks even more for the past 12 to 15 years every night I hope I do not wake up the next morning but as you can see I'm still here. I'm weak and a coward because I do not have the guts to end it myself as if I cling to something but I have no idea what that something is. Probably the worst of all evils known to man - Hope. My life lately feels like swimming through a sea of glass shards naked with no shore to be seen but I don't give up because I'm a fighter. I will never quit, death has to visit me in person and strangle me because I wont quit. That's the source I draw my strength from. If life hates me so much then I will hate it right back and won't give it the satisfaction of letting it defeat me. And maaaybe something good will come from it some day. Bottom line - if life sucks you got to respec yourself into bloodied monk or berserker build, the more HP you lose the harder you fight. To the three of you i sincerely hope that life will turn around for the better. I hope this ^ helps ... maybe a little.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 27, 2024 8:43:19 GMT
It's depressing to visit this forum currently, as I'm still buried in duties that sadly awaits Beetle too, eventually. I feel like I should say something uplifting. But the only thing in my mind is Churchill's speech about blood, toil, tears and sweat. But also Churchill's "When you find yourself going through Hell, keep going." Meaning, of course, don't stop there, pass through it. It's mentally exhausting because it's complicated and unknown, it's emotionally exhausting, and it's even physically exhausting, because you have to dig through it all personally, because things matters. What can I say? Don't let it "drown" you into despair. Take one step at a time. Figure what you can/need do now, do that. Repeat figure what you can do, do that, and so on. Just keep plodding. Best wishes. True and it gets even more depressing when i continue reading ... jeez. Sorry I'm already sorry that I told you'll this.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 27, 2024 9:08:03 GMT
If there was a dislike button I'd've hit it.
I'm done.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 27, 2024 9:34:13 GMT
If there was a dislike button I'd've hit it. I'm done. What was this all about it is GoF who left and i have the feeling this was because of me.
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Post by dazk on Aug 27, 2024 9:35:28 GMT
If there was a dislike button I'd've hit it. I'm done. What was this all about it is GoF who left and i have the feeling this was because of me. Yeah I believe it was, what a shame. I do not think it was you.
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Post by Deleted on Aug 27, 2024 9:41:09 GMT
What was this all about it is GoF who left and i have the feeling this was because of me. Yeah I believe it was, what a shame. I do not think it was you. Yes true what a shame. Sorry to say this dazk but i'm not so sure i still think it was because of me.
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