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Post by Giant Ambush Beetle on Mar 16, 2017 2:59:55 GMT
I'm seriously pissed off. Out of nowhere a blister appeared on my lip, a large one, now I look like a fucking leper. I really have to fight the urge to take a knife and cut it off, thats how annoying it is. Tried all sorts of meds but nothing works. Guess I'll have to sit this one out. Didn't have a blister on my lip in years and now this shit happens. Why? On your lip? I would occasionally get them on my hands or feet from football, but damn. Yeah lip - I only get those when I'm very severely stressed out, which happens like once or twice a year. This time it was completely unprovoked though. The blister always goes away in a week or so but its annoying as fuck and the lip takes a long time to fully heal.
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Post by Lady Artifice on Mar 17, 2017 15:38:59 GMT
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Post by Deleted on Mar 24, 2017 5:55:54 GMT
I need to rant too! But I'm not ready.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 24, 2017 6:31:31 GMT
I need to rant too! But I'm not ready.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 24, 2017 7:20:33 GMT
*sigh* okay so basically this is what has been eating at me for the last 17 year since.
Irl I'm straight but it isn't always that simple!
I'm an only child and my mom didn't want kids but my dad convinced her to have me anyway then she got too stressed and left (he never told me that but youdind out) so basically I got pretty close with him and I'm pretty sure I'm his favorite person ever and he thinks I'm pretty cool. But I don't know how he feels about gay people because he makes comments. And I've never been interested in guys so even as a kid I don't think I got flustered f cute guys did nice things for me. I really can't handle him being upset with me.
So he's always asking why I don't have a boyfriend and stuff...I really don't want one.
Online and in games (other than if he watches me play) and when reading or writing fan fiction I focus on lesbian stuff because it makes me happier as idk been that way since before I even really decided I'm gay (which is never saying I've even written and it's hard to type that out, but I know you guys don't care here)
But I have one friend who I mean idk if gay/straight/bi but I assume straight since most everyone here is. And whenever we're hanging out I always always, even though most of my friends I'm jormal with and not weird (almost all are girls), her I think everything g she does or at least hope, will end up like some anime moment where we accidentally do something and kiss and it's embarrassing but then we are girlfriends. Obviously never does.
So now I have to keep hiding that I'm like girls, pretend to be normal around her, and I feel guilty because she trusts me as a friend and I imagine kissing her a lot.
So yeah that's what's on my mind all the time.
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Post by DomeWing333 on Mar 24, 2017 22:08:22 GMT
*sigh* okay so basically this is what has been eating at me for the last 17 year since. Irl I'm straight but it isn't always that simple! Uh...this is a typo, right? Because it really doesn't sound like you're straight. It doesn't even really sound like you're bi. Pretty sure you're a lesbian, kiddo. I'm an only child and my mom didn't want kids but my dad convinced her to have me anyway then she got too stressed and left (he never told me that but youdind out) so basically I got pretty close with him and I'm pretty sure I'm his favorite person ever and he thinks I'm pretty cool. But I don't know how he feels about gay people because he makes comments. And I've never been interested in guys so even as a kid I don't think I got flustered f cute guys did nice things for me. I really can't handle him being upset with me. It sounds like you two have a good relationship. It might take him a little while to process the news, but I don't think he'd be upset with you for being who you are. But maybe next time he makes one of those comments, ask him about it. Just to test out the waters and see whether it's just a "Well that's pretty weird and I don't get it" thing for him or more of a "That's wrong and I don't like people who do it" thing. What kind of comments does he make, anyway? But I have one friend who I mean idk if gay/straight/bi but I assume straight since most everyone here is. And whenever we're hanging out I always always, even though most of my friends I'm jormal with and not weird (almost all are girls), her I think everything g she does or at least hope, will end up like some anime moment where we accidentally do something and kiss and it's embarrassing but then we are girlfriends. Obviously never does. So now I have to keep hiding that I'm like girls, pretend to be normal around her, and I feel guilty because she trusts me as a friend and I imagine kissing her a lot. Try to see if she has any interests in girls. If you're nervous about plain out admitting to her that you like her/girls, maybe just bring it up in another context. Like tell her about how you play games with all these romance options and mention how it was actually kinda fun romancing a girl. If she reacts positively, maybe see where you can go from there. Good luck.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 24, 2017 22:26:18 GMT
So when I say I'm straight irl I mean I've never ever even said that I'm lesbian to anybody. So irl I act straight and when my friends call a guy cute I try to make sure to agree and nod and stuff so they don't notice. They think I'm shy but I don't think they suspect I'm gay. And yeah it's a good relationship which is why I don't want to disappoint him! I just turned 17 a couple months ago and I'm a junior and he already doesn't like when I talk about applying for school so I don't want to pile things on. I think he wants grandkids someday and idk I want kids but I'm scared to be a mom cuz I have no clue what to do (I'm obviously too young right now but later) so if my future wife says no I probably wouldn't adopt or anything The comments hale makes are like "that's annoying that they feel like they need more gays than normal people" or "it doesn't even make sense why we'd need to change how we act for basically 100 people, you know?" Or "if she looks and acts like a guy why would a girl be into her? That's how you know it's just for attention." (I'm more into female behavior and appearance myself but I can handle a bit masculine or like controlling sometimes is nice to think of ) Test it with the girl? She makes me nervous though and I get really happy when we hang out so I can't make her mad at me. She also said we should try to go to the same college. I've known her for about a year and she already likes me more than some of my friends and yeah I always love to think of it that way, realistically she just feels safer with me. I don't want her to think I'm being taking advantage of her considering her past so I can't tell her I'm gay or she'd think I'm not a real friend...(and I yelled at her for taking off her shirt once because I didn't want to take advantage of her trusting me as another girl, but I had to make excuses) Umm~ maybe that sheds some light as to why it's not so simple for me? I wish I were just straight. And on tv everyone is so natural and accepting of t but irl it's so much harder and nobody can help me! Nobody really gets it but my dad says most gay people are just in Middle school or High School for attention or too young to get it so maybe I'll grow out of it but we also have different opinions.
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Post by DomeWing333 on Mar 24, 2017 23:22:27 GMT
Test it with the girl? She makes me nervous though and I get really happy when we hang out so I can't make her mad at me. She also said we should try to go to the same college. I've known her for about a year and she already likes me more than some of my friends and yeah I always love to think of it that way, realistically she just feels safer with me. I don't want her to think I'm being taking advantage of her considering her past so I can't tell her I'm gay or she'd think I'm not a real friend...( and I yelled at her for taking off her shirt once because I didn't want to take advantage of her trusting me as another girl, but I had to make excuses) Okay, first of all, good on you for that. Being that mindful of things like that shows that you have a lot of integrity and means that you're a good friend. Assuming that she's also a good friend, I doubt your friend will be mad at you or stop considering you a friend just for being gay, even if she's completely straight herself. (And, hey, if she's not, you might be able to get a good thing going there with a little boldness )
Anyway, same goes for your dad. If he loves you--and it sounds like he does--I think he'd just want you to be happy. And that means being okay with who you are rather than thinking you need to be something else in order to be accepted by him.
Even though some of the things that your dad says aren't so great, it seems like his attitude is more ignorant and dismissive than hateful. So it is very likely something he can get past. At the very least, it doesn't seem like he's the type to completely flip out over it. If you still don't feel ready to let him know yet, that's fine, but from what you've told me, I don't think it will be as bad as you're probably imagining.
If you ever feel like you need to talk to someone who's had similar experiences, you've come to a good place for it. There's a pretty sizeable portion of LGBT folks here and I'm sure they'll be happy to help if you're struggling with this stuff.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 24, 2017 23:35:12 GMT
I'm hah I asked the Suvi thread if I could pm somebody but nobody seemed to want to. I get it I'm kind of new and a stranger to them...but hopefully one of the lesbians from there will someday be more willing to let mentalknit over. I kind of want to say something and get it over with but when I think about it it gets scarier and scarier.
Once I say it it's permanent and I can't change my mind or try to grow out of it or pretend anything. And it'll always be sort of a defining feature of me that people at school will then know me as the lesbian not just (my name)
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Post by Deleted on Mar 24, 2017 23:38:24 GMT
Thanks very much for the chat. Umm based off what you know why did you say it could be good if I'm bold? Do you think she seems bi or something?
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Post by DomeWing333 on Mar 25, 2017 0:00:28 GMT
I'm hah I asked the Suvi thread if I could pm somebody but nobody seemed to want to. I get it I'm kind of new and a stranger to them...but hopefully one of the lesbians from there will someday be more willing to let mentalknit over. I kind of want to say something and get it over with but when I think about it it gets scarier and scarier. Once I say it it's permanent and I can't change my mind or try to grow out of it or pretend anything. And it'll always be sort of a defining feature of me that people at school will then know me as the lesbian not just (my name) Natashina vertigomez GeneralXIV You guys feel like helping a sister out?
Well, you're not going to grow out of it and pretending to be something you're not takes its toll (I mean why else are you venting here, right?) You don't have to share it with everyone if you don't want to, but it's worth considering maybe talking to your friend about it. Also, come on, you can't be the only lesbian in that place. From my experience, like a quarter of those girls are at least bi and another half questioned it once or twice. It'll also gets a lot better when you get to college because they often have a lot of resources for this kind of stuff. Thanks very much for the chat. Umm based off what you know why did you say it could be good if I'm bold? Do you think she seems bi or something? You're very welcome.
No idea. You just seem to like her a lot and you get a long well, so it's worth a shot. Also as a straight male, if there's any possibility of girl-on-girl, I'm contractually obligated to encourage it. (jk)
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Post by Deleted on Mar 25, 2017 0:02:29 GMT
I'm hah I asked the Suvi thread if I could pm somebody but nobody seemed to want to. I get it I'm kind of new and a stranger to them...but hopefully one of the lesbians from there will someday be more willing to let mentalknit over. I kind of want to say something and get it over with but when I think about it it gets scarier and scarier. Once I say it it's permanent and I can't change my mind or try to grow out of it or pretend anything. And it'll always be sort of a defining feature of me that people at school will then know me as the lesbian not just (my name) Natashina vertigomez GeneralXIV You guys feel like helping a sister out?
Well, you're not going to grow out of it and pretending to be something you're not takes its toll (I mean why else are you venting here, right?) You don't have to share it with everyone if you don't want to, but it's worth considering maybe talking to your friend about it. Also, come on, you can't be the only lesbian in that place. From my experience, like a quarter of those girls are at least bi and another half questioned it once or twice. It'll also gets a lot better when you get to college because they often have a lot of resources for this kind of stuff. Thanks very much for the chat. Umm based off what you know why did you say it could be good if I'm bold? Do you think she seems bi or something? You're very welcome.
No idea. You just seem to like her a lot and you get a long well, so it's worth a shot. Also as a straight male, if there's any possibility of girl-on-girl, I'm contractually obligated to encourage it. (jk)
Im one step ahead already ill help as much as I can!
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Post by Deleted on Mar 25, 2017 0:11:12 GMT
So when I say I'm straight irl I mean I've never ever even said that I'm lesbian to anybody. So irl I act straight and when my friends call a guy cute I try to make sure to agree and nod and stuff so they don't notice. They think I'm shy but I don't think they suspect I'm gay. And yeah it's a good relationship which is why I don't want to disappoint him! I just turned 17 a couple months ago and I'm a junior and he already doesn't like when I talk about applying for school so I don't want to pile things on. I think he wants grandkids someday and idk I want kids but I'm scared to be a mom cuz I have no clue what to do (I'm obviously too young right now but later) so if my future wife says no I probably wouldn't adopt or anything The comments hale makes are like "that's annoying that they feel like they need more gays than normal people" or "it doesn't even make sense why we'd need to change how we act for basically 100 people, you know?" Or "if she looks and acts like a guy why would a girl be into her? That's how you know it's just for attention." (I'm more into female behavior and appearance myself but I can handle a bit masculine or like controlling sometimes is nice to think of ) Test it with the girl? She makes me nervous though and I get really happy when we hang out so I can't make her mad at me. She also said we should try to go to the same college. I've known her for about a year and she already likes me more than some of my friends and yeah I always love to think of it that way, realistically she just feels safer with me. I don't want her to think I'm being taking advantage of her considering her past so I can't tell her I'm gay or she'd think I'm not a real friend...(and I yelled at her for taking off her shirt once because I didn't want to take advantage of her trusting me as another girl, but I had to make excuses) Umm~ maybe that sheds some light as to why it's not so simple for me? I wish I were just straight. And on tv everyone is so natural and accepting of t but irl it's so much harder and nobody can help me! Nobody really gets it but my dad says most gay people are just in Middle school or High School for attention or too young to get it so maybe I'll grow out of it but we also have different opinions. I'm glad Domewing was so good at replying to you, but I would also like to ask, from a parents point of view, is it at all possible that maybe your father already suspects you may be a lesbian, and his comments may be him trying to see how you would react? Maybe he wants to have a conversation with you but doesn't know how to approach the subject because he doesn't want to put you on the defensive in case he's wrong. Aside from his comments, have the two of you ever actually had a deep conversation on the topic?
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Post by vertigomez on Mar 25, 2017 0:55:22 GMT
DomeWing333 Thanks for the vote of confidence! *sigh* okay so basically this is what has been eating at me for the last 17 year since. Irl I'm straight but it isn't always that simple! I'm an only child and my mom didn't want kids but my dad convinced her to have me anyway then she got too stressed and left (he never told me that but youdind out) so basically I got pretty close with him and I'm pretty sure I'm his favorite person ever and he thinks I'm pretty cool. But I don't know how he feels about gay people because he makes comments. And I've never been interested in guys so even as a kid I don't think I got flustered f cute guys did nice things for me. I really can't handle him being upset with me. So he's always asking why I don't have a boyfriend and stuff...I really don't want one. Online and in games (other than if he watches me play) and when reading or writing fan fiction I focus on lesbian stuff because it makes me happier as idk been that way since before I even really decided I'm gay (which is never saying I've even written and it's hard to type that out, but I know you guys don't care here) But I have one friend who I mean idk if gay/straight/bi but I assume straight since most everyone here is. And whenever we're hanging out I always always, even though most of my friends I'm jormal with and not weird (almost all are girls), her I think everything g she does or at least hope, will end up like some anime moment where we accidentally do something and kiss and it's embarrassing but then we are girlfriends. Obviously never does. So now I have to keep hiding that I'm like girls, pretend to be normal around her, and I feel guilty because she trusts me as a friend and I imagine kissing her a lot. So yeah that's what's on my mind all the time. HELLO FRIEND, my name is Gomez and I have been in your shoes. I'm sorry that you live in an environment that is unfriendly towards and dismissive of gay people. That's not easy, whether it's coming from your neighbors, your media, your friends, or your dad. [E M E R G E N C Y H U G] Your crush is totally normal and adorable (goofy romantic fantasies are THE BEST, don't let anyone tell you otherwise. Indulge in them. Have fun with your imagination bc that's what!! it's!! there!! for!!). You don't have to feel guilty for harboring a crush so long as you respect the boundaries of the person you're crushing on, and it sounds like you do. As for your friend: I don't know her. I don't know how she feels about you in particular. I don't know how she feels about gay people. How does she react when LGBT topics are brought up? When there's a lesbian couple on TV, or a guy at school is rumored to have a crush on another guy? If she doesn't react negatively, and you trust her and feel safe with her and truly feel that you share a special connection with her, I'd go ahead and let her know. Tell her what she means to you. As for your dad and others like him... it's hard to hear hateful comments every single day from people you love and respect. You want them to love and respect you, and feeling like they don't or won't if you reveal a secret part of yourself to them is a heavy burden indeed. Your father sounds like mine - always asking why I don't have a boyfriend and when I'm going to bring home Mr. Right. Subtlety and hints don't usually work here, because when someone is that insistent they're either genuinely or willfully oblivious, meaning they either don't get it and you have to be blunt, or they don't want to get it and you have to be blunt AND firm. I'm sorry that we live in a society that assumes we're heterosexual by default, that puts us in the nerve-wracking position of having to correct people with no real way of knowing how they'll react. [M O A R E M E R G E N C Y H U G S]One thing that helped me come to terms with myself is... the Internet. Forums like this one where, in certain threads at least, I could surround myself with queer people and allies. Having somewhere you're allowed to be open and honest, feel comfortable and accepted, have your sexuality openly CELEBRATED... these go a long way towards developing your self-confidence as a young queer person. Look, I am absolutely terrible at giving advice, but that's what I've got to say: stick around, love yourself, and the rest will come naturally. Feel free to PM me if you ever want to talk.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 25, 2017 1:16:15 GMT
I'm glad Domewing was so good at replying to you, but I would also like to ask, from a parents point of view, is it at all possible that maybe your father already suspects you may be a lesbian, and his comments may be him trying to see how you would react? Maybe he wants to have a conversation with you but doesn't know how to approach the subject because he doesn't want to put you on the defensive in case he's wrong. Aside from his comments, have the two of you ever actually had a deep conversation on the topic? Umm... I don't know why he may suspect it honestly. I'm very subtle about it and only read or write fan fictions past midnight in my bedroom so it isn't like he saw me read those. I wouldn't mind the idea of him just doing an awkward job of trying to pep talk me or something but...I don't even know how or why he would suspect me! Aaand ms Gomez? Thanks for the hugs and stuff. Yes when I saw how many LGBT were here I decided to stay here as opposed to reddit or what not. I definitely try to be respectful but even if I really have a romantic and still fun thing in my head sometimes it starts to make me hurt or guilty in real life. Part of me is ready to just scream it to everyone. That would be pretty blunt and firm..but at the same time I don't want to change or be different. My whole life will change if this secret gets out
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Post by Natashina on Mar 25, 2017 3:46:57 GMT
I'm glad Domewing was so good at replying to you, but I would also like to ask, from a parents point of view, is it at all possible that maybe your father already suspects you may be a lesbian, and his comments may be him trying to see how you would react? Maybe he wants to have a conversation with you but doesn't know how to approach the subject because he doesn't want to put you on the defensive in case he's wrong. Aside from his comments, have the two of you ever actually had a deep conversation on the topic? Umm... I don't know why he may suspect it honestly. I'm very subtle about it and only read or write fan fictions past midnight in my bedroom so it isn't like he saw me read those. I wouldn't mind the idea of him just doing an awkward job of trying to pep talk me or something but...I don't even know how or why he would suspect me! Aaand ms Gomez? Thanks for the hugs and stuff. Yes when I saw how many LGBT were here I decided to stay here as opposed to reddit or what not. I definitely try to be respectful but even if I really have a romantic and still fun thing in my head sometimes it starts to make me hurt or guilty in real life. Part of me is ready to just scream it to everyone. That would be pretty blunt and firm..but at the same time I don't want to change or be different. My whole life will change if this secret gets out <hugs> Sorry I'm late. Mod duty called. Since the other ladies have it covered, I'll just say that if you need to chat, please hit me up with a PM sometime. I don't know how useful I'd be, but I'm a good listener and I'm LGBT+. Let me know if you ever need to talk.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 25, 2017 3:56:56 GMT
Ooh. Mod duty sounds spicy!
I'll make sure to if I need help. A lot of girls here were so willing to talk with me that I don't know if I'll need to pm everyone. Other than getting multiple perspectives and bouncing my thoughts off of.
And maybe I'll pm if things go well for me but like if it's stuff I don't wanna say public.
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Post by Natashina on Mar 25, 2017 5:03:30 GMT
Ooh. Mod duty sounds spicy! I'll make sure to if I need help. A lot of girls here were so willing to talk with me that I don't know if I'll need to pm everyone. Other than getting multiple perspectives and bouncing my thoughts off of. And maybe I'll pm if things go well for me but like if it's stuff I don't wanna say public. I'm about to leave for the weekend so I can spend some time with my family. I wanted to come back in and say that if you need support, then we've got your back. <hugs> Take care of yourself. I'll be thinking good thoughts and hoping that everything goes well.
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Post by Arijon van Goyen on Mar 25, 2017 17:41:11 GMT
Ooh. Mod duty sounds spicy!
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I'm hah I asked the Suvi thread if I could pm somebody but nobody seemed to want to. I get it I'm kind of new and a stranger to them...but hopefully one of the lesbians from there will someday be more willing to let mentalknit over. I kind of want to say something and get it over with but when I think about it it gets scarier and scarier. Once I say it it's permanent and I can't change my mind or try to grow out of it or pretend anything. And it'll always be sort of a defining feature of me that people at school will then know me as the lesbian not just (my name) You will come out when it is time. It may not be at the time that you would like it to be, but it will still come out. I was sixteen when I came out. 'Came out', what a weird expression. We have spent so many many years hiding our reality from 'correct' society (and until recently the law) that we have to use an escape phrase to quit being covert so we can be open about who we are. How fucked up is that? I can't imagine what it was like for those that came before. I was 16 and my brothers came to take me to a night out. A couple of gin and lemonades later I fell into/'on top of' the birthday cake, got my self locked in the w/c and tired to talk the bar maid into running off with me. A most remarkable evening indeed. It all came rushing back to me the next morning, including the realization that all of my brothers now knew that I was gay. I wanted to die, but I was far to sick attempt it. Hopefully someday in the not to distant future, having to pronounce to the world that you are gay will no longer be anything more than the natural things you have to go through when you are growing up and it will be no big deal. You can change your mind anytime you want. It is not about being gay. It is about who you are attracted to. For humans that practice monogamy it is about having one partner that you share with. Dad is another thing and only you will know about your family and how to deal with them. Mine was fine. He was more interested in my wife's family than her gender. My mother was something else and tried to talk me into being straight. She has since come around now that we have given her grandchildren, although she still sticks a jab in occasionally. So far my wife has not killed her, of course we do live on different sides of the Atlantic. As for your girl friend; it is wonderful to find that someone that you want to spend time with, but until you know her well enough to know if she is compatible it is just the sensation of an unfulfilled but potential satisfaction. If you are unsure of her attitude about gays, and if you are truly gay, it is probably a good idea to find out before you fall in love, because it is doubtful that you will ever not be gay and if it turns her off I would guess you wont be friends long. If she is not bothered by it then friends are probably what you will end up being and if she is in fact gay as well you just need to go through what all potential lover go through. Note statistically the odds are slim, we show up 1 in 10. But, against odds, I met my wife in a packing lot.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 25, 2017 23:17:14 GMT
Thank you for your advice! Things actually went well today before I read your post, i decided to let her know.
She kissed me lightly and I put all my heart in it and I think she felt that! So she is thinking about it and we've been texting a bit but I'm not sure how she feels yet.
I didn't tell anyone else about it. I'd like to tell my dad but I have no idea how. I'm just gonna romance PeeBee and if he asks things then...we'll if he isn't mad that I romanced a girl in a game then I can more easily make that transition
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Post by Deleted on Mar 25, 2017 23:21:51 GMT
Thank you for your advice! Things actually went well today before I read your post, i decided to let her know. She kissed me lightly and I put all my heart in it and I think she felt that! So she is thinking about it and we've been texting a bit but I'm not sure how she feels yet. I didn't tell anyone else about it. I'd like to tell my dad but I have no idea how. I'm just gonna romance PeeBee and if he asks things then...we'll if he isn't mad that I romanced a girl in a game then I can more easily make that transition I probably did not mention that my mother did not know I was gay until I showed up to let my family know I was getting married.
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Post by Deleted on Mar 26, 2017 1:08:23 GMT
Thank you for your advice! Things actually went well today before I read your post, i decided to let her know. She kissed me lightly and I put all my heart in it and I think she felt that! So she is thinking about it and we've been texting a bit but I'm not sure how she feels yet. I didn't tell anyone else about it. I'd like to tell my dad but I have no idea how. I'm just gonna romance PeeBee and if he asks things then...we'll if he isn't mad that I romanced a girl in a game then I can more easily make that transition I probably did not mention that my mother did not know I was gay until I showed upΒ to let my family know I was getting married. I'm sorry to hear that...to me it is important that my dad is part of my life and I don't know how I'd hide that for long enough to get engaged...
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Post by Giant Ambush Beetle on Apr 2, 2017 0:18:27 GMT
By the gods, I'm so stupid, I'm new to Sudoku puzzles and tried to solve one - I nearly broke my brain in the process because I didn't get the rules right. I thought it wasn't just vertical plus horizontal columns but also angular columns across the board, as in like a row from bottom left to top right corner. Of course, that makes it basically impossible to solve. DUMB.
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