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Post by Deleted on Apr 10, 2017 6:07:28 GMT
Graaah!! *sigh*
So I had a date and had the best time ever on Friday.
But I came home Friday night and told my dad. He said something but I didn't hear it then he just left.
I love eating but all Saturday I wasn't even hungry. At dinner time he knocked on my door and told me I have to come out for dinner. (That is all he said to me all day. No good night or morning like usual) but when I went out of my room I was excited that's he'd still eat with me but there was only one plate on the table and when I got it he got a plate and left.
Sunday I was really frustrated and said "I don't care if I'm lesbian I still love you" and he didn't say anything still so I was really hurt so I told him "I wish mom took me instead, and I bet she wouldn't care if I like girls" and he didn't even get mad or anything he just left the house and came home drunk which he hasn't done in years because of an incident one time that he apparently isn't scared to repeat anymore because he doesn't even care about me anymore.
I knew I'd ruin everything but people said he if he loves me he wouldn't mind and I thought he did.
I can't sleep but I felt exhausted all day. And nothing in the world seems like fun...
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Post by Deleted on Apr 10, 2017 6:20:06 GMT
Graaah!! *sigh* So I had a date and had the best time ever on Friday. But I came home Friday night and told my dad. He said something but I didn't hear it then he just left. I love eating but all Saturday I wasn't even hungry. At dinner time he knocked on my door and told me I have to come out for dinner. (That is all he said to me all day. No good night or morning like usual) but when I went out of my room I was excited that's he'd still eat with me but there was only one plate on the table and when I got it he got a plate and left. Sunday I was really frustrated and said "I don't care if I'm lesbian I still love you" and he didn't say anything still so I was really hurt so I told him "I wish mom took me instead, and I bet she wouldn't care if I like girls" and he didn't even get mad or anything he just left the house and came home drunk which he hasn't done in years because of an incident one time that he apparently isn't scared to repeat anymore because he doesn't even care about me anymore. I knew I'd ruin everything but people said he if he loves me he wouldn't mind and I thought he did. I can't sleep but I felt exhausted all day. And nothing in the world seems like fun...
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Post by Arijon van Goyen on Apr 10, 2017 6:56:01 GMT
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Post by Deleted on Apr 10, 2017 21:07:59 GMT
Graaah!! *sigh* So I had a date and had the best time ever on Friday. But I came home Friday night and told my dad. He said something but I didn't hear it then he just left. I love eating but all Saturday I wasn't even hungry. At dinner time he knocked on my door and told me I have to come out for dinner. (That is all he said to me all day. No good night or morning like usual) but when I went out of my room I was excited that's he'd still eat with me but there was only one plate on the table and when I got it he got a plate and left. Sunday I was really frustrated and said "I don't care if I'm lesbian I still love you" and he didn't say anything still so I was really hurt so I told him "I wish mom took me instead, and I bet she wouldn't care if I like girls" and he didn't even get mad or anything he just left the house and came home drunk which he hasn't done in years because of an incident one time that he apparently isn't scared to repeat anymore because he doesn't even care about me anymore. I knew I'd ruin everything but people said he if he loves me he wouldn't mind and I thought he did. I can't sleep but I felt exhausted all day. And nothing in the world seems like fun... My heart is breaking for you and I hope your dad is just taking time to digest this information, there may be things he's contemplating that you don't know about yet. When I hear about situations like this it makes me wish there were more things in place to help the young folk in this type of situation. About the only thing I can offer is moral support and a wish that your situation improves. *hugs*
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Post by Deleted on Apr 10, 2017 21:22:17 GMT
*hug ms shadow and vivainaxd*
Thanks. I'm not sure. Even when I was I trouble or anything it isn't like he made me feel like I don't exist or drank or anything (I know adults drink buts it's different)
I don't want to just wait and hope it fixes itself because it really hurts... but I can't change anyone's heart either and I know that
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Post by Deleted on Apr 10, 2017 22:07:00 GMT
*hug ms shadow and vivainaxd* Thanks. I'm not sure. Even when I was I trouble or anything it isn't like he made me feel like I don't exist or drank or anything (I know adults drink buts it's different) I don't want to just wait and hope it fixes itself because it really hurts... but I can't change anyone's heart either and I know that Well, is the area you live in apt to have some kind of actual family councilling, or would it be more an area that promotes that conversion bullshit? From what I've heard, there are some real tricky areas to 'come out' in. As a parent myself, I would've dreaded the hardships my kid would've had to face, had they of 'come out' at your age. Especially if we lived in one of those strongly anti-LGBT communities. How the hell do you protect your kid from that? My thought would be that your dad may be contemplating how he's going look out for you and has nothing to do with suddenly not caring about you. You know your dad, I don't, but as a parent I know how nervewracking things can be when you're trying to look out for your kids.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 11, 2017 5:55:45 GMT
I responded in pms and I am sorry to rant twice in one night but I can't stop thinking about it! My dad was only person with me my whole life and he hates me. He apologized for drinking and that's all he said since I mentioned that I wish I was with my mom.
And I was being bratty and only said it to get at him since he is ignoring me I'd rather him get mad than pretend I'm not even real. Nobody has been that upset with me before.
And now suddenly I just wanna lay in the same bed as my mom and have her hold me except that I don't even know who she is, she hates me since I was a baby, I ruined her marriage, and I drove her away and don't know what she even looks like and she doesn't know anything about me. Yet now all the sudden for the first time ever I want her to hold me. And I called someone whose job it was to be nice to people just so she'd be nice to me and it felt good for a second but I stopped caring after a bit.
I'm telling my friends tomorrow but idk what I'll do if they all hate me.
okay update part 3:
i told my friends this morning (my gf and I wanted to but we wanted to ease them into that we were dating and since I knew them longer she said I should, unless I wanted her there but I said it's okay) and they were really confused for a bit then kinda looked at me and one of my friends was like "you know who else seems kinda gay...(says my girlfriends name)" and i said "yeah she's the cutest girl ever" and one of my friends was like "umm. Hey!"
So I kinda laughed and blushed PROFUSELY and told them we were dating, so they cheered for me a bit and hugged me then when we saw her hugged her. And we're all going out for dinner tonight.
My girlfriend's mom said I can sleep at their place if I need to (just to feel less lonely) but I didn't want to for obvious reasons but one of my friends said I can stay st her place and I joked that she has the most comfy couch and she just kinda looked at me like I was weird and said "when did I ever make my friends sleep on the couch?" So she isn't scared of me or anything despite you know :3
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Post by DomeWing333 on Apr 11, 2017 18:26:07 GMT
*hug ms shadow and vivainaxd* Thanks. I'm not sure. Even when I was I trouble or anything it isn't like he made me feel like I don't exist or drank or anything (I know adults drink buts it's different) I don't want to just wait and hope it fixes itself because it really hurts... but I can't change anyone's heart either and I know that I think this is harder for him to handle than you getting in trouble or doing something bad. You didn't do anything wrong and he knows it, so he can't scold you or punish you for it. He just has to deal with it, and that can take time. Anyway, I'm sorry you're hurting and I'm especially sorry for exacerbating it by being optimistic about how I thought his reaction would be. That said, I still don't think his behavior comes from a place of hate, but rather a place of paralyzing uncertainty. He's at a loss about how to interact with you now because it feels like everything has changed. Even though, as you wisely pointed out, nothing has--you're still the same person and you still love him. Hopefully he'll realizes the value of that soon.
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Post by BamBam the Destroyer on Apr 11, 2017 21:39:43 GMT
Just got back from my Grandmother's funeral. It was nice to see everybody... and she had been in a poor state for a long time... and she was 96...
But I have no grandparents left now.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 11, 2017 21:51:56 GMT
Just got back from my Grandmother's funeral. It was nice to see everybody... and she had been in a poor state for a long time... and she was 96... But I have no grandparents left now. Condolences, Jock. My Grandmameur is getting well on as well and I dread going home for her funeral.
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Post by Deleted on Apr 11, 2017 22:04:38 GMT
Just got back from my Grandmother's funeral. It was nice to see everybody... and she had been in a poor state for a long time... and she was 96... But I have no grandparents left now. Awww... You just broke my heart Bambam. I'm sorry for your loss. I understand the feeling though, back in June my father passed away and it occured to me that I was now an orphan... *hugs*
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Post by Deleted on Apr 11, 2017 22:50:15 GMT
Just got back from my Grandmother's funeral. It was nice to see everybody... and she had been in a poor state for a long time... and she was 96... But I have no grandparents left now. *hugs* I am very sorry if you're hurt. K hope someday you're famil can all hang out without such sad motivation!
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Post by BamBam the Destroyer on Apr 11, 2017 23:12:25 GMT
Just got back from my Grandmother's funeral. It was nice to see everybody... and she had been in a poor state for a long time... and she was 96... But I have no grandparents left now. *hugs* I am very sorry if you're hurt. K hope someday you're famil can all hang out without such sad motivation! We are numerous (I'm one of 8) and spread all over the US. It is rare that we are all together more than once a year or so. And that is just my immediate family. I don't know how to judge this one honestly. I was sad when I heard the news, but she had been a poor state for a while. She had no memory of us, and needed assistance for everything. A few years back when my grandfather passed, she pretty much lost it. She would obsess over the fact that he was gone, going into crying fits after seeing anyone that looked like him, basically until the memory loss kicked in. I did not have much a personal relationship with her-most of the times I saw her, she was calling me a genius or asking me if I was married- but if you're gonna go, I would hope you go cleaner than that. I just wish her last time here could have been better.
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Post by Ravenous Bear on Apr 14, 2017 9:53:56 GMT
My new Aorus 1080 ti Xtreme just suffered white square artifacting in game and then crashed. going to have to return it to newegg.
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Post by Deleted on Jun 11, 2017 18:05:58 GMT
My mom has been threatening to leave my dad due to his drinking problem. He has been driving drunk and yesterday he lied about drinking any beer. :srs:
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Post by Arijon van Goyen on Jun 11, 2017 18:47:14 GMT
My mom has been threatening to leave my dad due to his drinking problem. He has been driving drunk and yesterday he lied about drinking any beer. :srs: Billy the squid why you transgender now?
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Post by Dobby on Jun 11, 2017 22:29:50 GMT
My mom has been threatening to leave my dad due to his drinking problem. He has been driving drunk and yesterday he lied about drinking any beer. :srs: Billy the squid why you transgender now? Hey! That's rude! But tbh, I get confused too thinking it's him with that avatar.
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Post by Lady Artifice on Jun 15, 2017 0:12:23 GMT
There's an active shooter at a military base near where I live. My favorite coworker/friend's husband is there. I hope he's okay.
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Post by Ravenous Bear on Jun 15, 2017 0:24:33 GMT
There's an active shooter at a military base near where I live. My favorite coworker/friend's husband is there. I hope he's okay. Just read that online. Hoping for the best for your friend's husband and everyone else there serving our country. I had enough of shootings for a lifetime.
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Post by Psy on Jun 15, 2017 0:39:31 GMT
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Post by DomeWing333 on Jun 15, 2017 1:54:00 GMT
This severe depression, anxiety and self-loathing will get the best of me if I'm not careful. I have noticed something of a trend in the poetry you posted. Are you alright? Have you been talking to anyone about how you've been feeling?
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Post by Psy on Jun 15, 2017 1:55:42 GMT
I have noticed something of a trend in the poetry you posted. Are you alright? Have you been talking to anyone about how you've been feeling? Your care and questions are appreciated. I am in therapeutic and psychiatric care. Thank you for asking me - it really meant a lot.
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