Jaal Ama Darav (Official Thread)

Did you... perhaps publish those fanfics anywhere? Just... out of curiosity. 

I think they put that idea into our heads without us knowing, because I'm planning on doing exactly the same thing. We already know that the twins are separate people with separate personalities, and from what we've seen in the trailers it really seems you're right about their characters. There's also the VA video with Tom and Fryda on top of that. Oh and the pathfinder team briefing video where we got a bio for them. 

I'm really curious how much it will impact our interactions with people in the game. Will they deliver the lines in a significantly different tone, as opposed to the natural difference because they're being voiced by different people, obviously. Will we get entirely different lines in some cases? Will the romances/romance scenes or even story cutscenes play out differently? I can't wait to find out ughh

Haha long ago my friend. But bad things happened in my life and I lost my will to draw and write, and I was one of the best no lie. MEA is inspiring me again though.

fialka same with me when I saw him!

I will be more than happy to share my art and writing with all of you here when I am able to start up again!

uhh.. kinda related? not really but I still thought it was funny 

Um, excuse you, sexy lobster. 

You know what, the will to draw and write will come back, if it haven't already. Same happened to me. I stopped doing both after my teens, because life was shit, very literally, and no one ever encouraged me to continue. I was sure I'm so lousy I might aswell drown myself. Now I'm older (again, literally) and first I began to draw, then I began to write. In English. The need was so bad I had to do it. I get like...zero comments, lol, but I don't do any networking and maybe I just suck but I don't mind, it has been a trip! Right now I don't really do either, though I wrote one story not so long ago, but it is more just lack of inspiration and laziness, and the need is not there right now. Drawing is less important and I do it mostly if I want to have something on my wall. Though I've been looking at Jaal with that eye lately...Making videos has always been a way to be creative for me too, even though it is just recording the games. If you have a need to create,  it will never go away, in some form it will demand your attention.

I said all this because no one ever encouraged me and I'm still bitter about it. People deserve to be encouraged

What kind of bug could that be though? Like... are we talking just a bit of a twitch in certain scenes or a full on Bethesda level spasm lmao

I'm very sorry for your loss. It is not stupid to let it affect you. It is stupid to demand we are not affected. People say stuff like that because they can't actually handle their own feelings, and seeing other showing feelings openly makes them anxious about it. You will draw and write again, I promise you. You will do it when time is right, and funny thing is, even if you are not using your talents for years and years, they develope. That's happened to me, at least.

Thank you. Really. Thank you for those words! I This is partly why I got into ME. I used Shepard as a way to focus my feelings. I was taught my whole life to hold everything in and never cry, so the games helped me grieve. When Mordin, Thane, Legion and EDI died I actually cried and I never do that.

Artemis thank you too and you're right, it's sad when your effort is treated like nothing.

Ian is now saying any art with Vetra and Jaal with Sara is not a confirmed romance lol

When I started publishing anything I did, drawing (I had deviantart gallery but it is long gone), writing (that is still a valid thing and now and then someone even reads them, lol), but especially when I started Youtube, I was super-anxious about feedback. I was really insecure, but the need to show what I'd done was there. When one of my videos got over 100 000 views I stopped being anxious. At that point I realised that the best thing to do is to do it all for myself, and if other people like it, even better. I can't make them like it. Yet, I'm not those people who create for other people, or try to create something that would attract views or readers. I create from deep inside myself. When I wrote about Marnh and Marne (my characters in SWTOR), they both have pieces of me in them, painful pieces. Writing about Marnh was  literally healing for me. His feelings were my feelings that I had experienced, but I could give him the happy life I never had. I still love him so much it is crazy. Self-expression is more important for me than getting people to notice me. So, I'm not anxious anymore about views and readers, and I'm never disappointed. I've accepted that my way of doing things is not what quite many people like, but I'm in this world to do my own thing, 100%.