Mental Health

For OP, this is a good thread. I think people talk too little of their mental issues and there is a stigma of having them. Nobody should have to be ashamed because of their mental problems/issues/diagnoses.
I have suffered from stress related anxiety and depression and postnatal depression. I have noticed I have a tendency to over stretch my mental resources, especially when I am excited and motivated about something. The end result is loss of sleep, anxiety and crippling guilt. I am not always sure which starts which, do I burn myself out with the work and this leads to depression or does the depression/anxiety phase start first and this leads to me not being able to perform my duties at work or home.
To this day, I have not talked about my problems with doctors but I have shared my experiences with my closest people. When ever I have hit the depression phase, I try recognise it as early as I can and consequently to slow down as much as I can.

I feel that everybody has to find their own way of dealing with their mental issues, because everybody's different and the background is different etc. If somebody comes saying, this works definitely, you really need to try this, this will heal you, I would be very careful before agreeing to anything. Anyway, I wish everybody a good year and a good spring. Don't let the depression win!

I'm pretty sure I have some weird mental issue that causes me to be extremely distrusting.
I always automatically assume the worst of people and every time I'm wrong, which is about 75%+ of the times I'm completely puzzled - but that does not stop me from continuing with this practice, even with its abysmal success rate. I always assume people either lie to me for their own personal gain, try to take advantage of me, or they are trying to be friends with me to strike when I'm not looking. I also assume that people who turn me down in various situations either dislike or hate me.
I think thats one reason why I'm so avoidant and I always have my guard up, I automatically consider people to be generally malevolent and harmful to my existence, and I am always super surprised when they are not, which only leads me to become even more suspicious of their motives.

But since my childhood was relatively normal -by modern standards- and I have not had any seriously traumatic experiences with people (or abuse) it must be some sort of brain malfunction. I'm aware of this issue and I know its not normal, but I cant get rid of it.

If you see a pro, and ask them what your diagnosis is, don't they have to tell you? I thought that was part of the Hippocratic oath.

I was watching youtube videos about various depressive disorders, and found one with symptoms that sounded awfully familiar. When I asked my psychologist about it, he said that was my official diagnosis. So thats how I found out about it.

Tbh though, I don't really care what my official diagnosis is. My goal is to get better.